The basis for this work is an experience of an end of an emotional relationship, which was like an orthopedic corset for the patient. Parting with him was tantamount to seeing a “flaccid body” with “amnesia of my own muscles”. This view was only a sad memory of the period before wearing a perfectly matched orthotic . The tension between the body and the soul fuelled my artistic activity. An internal experience – huge pain and a piercing feeling of emptiness, self-criticism accompanying them – manifested itself in psychosomatic symptoms of itchy skin. At the same time, I started to work with soap, which drying up spontaneously began to take shapes that are associated with specific parts of the body (head, hands, legs). I tried to materialize an intimate image of suffering, non-transferable, penitential experience in a ritual process of washing off dirt – guilt. The impression of communing with body debris, groups of scars or shrunken bone castings drew me into the process of obsessively mixing chemical substances and finding the right proportion of them to obtain a mixture, which will continue to shape depending mainly on time. When you begin to feel the living matter in your hands and see the emergence of a new being, it is raised from the level of the object to the level of the subject; having its own nature, its own history and finally its own face. The initial narrative ceases to dominate the work and the whole combination of gestures and decisions that makes up the reviving creative process takes precedence.